Spinning Jewel

by Alex Johnston

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released March 16, 2018

All songs written and recorded by Alex Johnston.
Mixed by Nervous Breakdance Studios.
Mastered at Resonant Mastering.


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Alex Johnston Everett, Washington

Because the nature of this world is impermanent,
I invite you to see these works as a progression of moments reflecting on the past, speaking to the present, and pondering the future. I invite you to see my work as one continuous unfolding story. Most importantly, I want to invite you on a journey. Will you join me? ... more

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Track Name: Hallways
walking through hallways
opening doors
i didn't know there were
losing direction
leaving my skin
i didn't know I could
looking for something
i don't know,
i lost it long ago
finding these fragments
these mirrors of me,
I didn't know there were

in the corners
all the piles of all of my forgotten memories
hides a child
my only friend
became the monster
who was chasing after me
with eyes like mirrors
reflecting scenes
of all the times that I was horrified
of losing everything
and words like ripples
all my fears about my future
that to this day are haunting me

is there any way out of here?
Track Name: Wild
picked up a stone and threw it through the window
shattered glass made an open threshold
i escaped like a wild animal
broken free to roam

all my life I've been waiting for this
everything's been pointing to this
my suspicions convinced it was coming to this
everything's been pointing to this
all my life, I've been waiting for this
there's no going back now

someone somewhere I'll never know
is singing a song and feeling the wind blow
something somewhere is waiting to be fixed
something somewhere will always be missed
some things are too wild to tame
a storm or a stillness
a calm or quickness
a feeling too fearless to fade
some things are to wild to name
the feeling is near but the words they are far
i've never been as free as I feel now
there's no going back now
i only know all I know,
all i know
Track Name: Hill Climbs High
the hill climbs high
and on and on
the walkway winds
through danger
to do no harm

the journey long
that longs for love
and loves the loss
of giving up to find my heart
is always home
always love
always one
one with all

when i look back will i own it
when i find it will i show it
when i have it will i hold it
will i let go of it

forward on, forward still
never stopping, never will
no i never will
Track Name: A Fire
blowing out this candle
the glowing heart still burns
while memories slowly dancing
float away for good
red fades out to black
the ocean turns to stone
and then I close my eyes
and then they open up
seeing shadows stand in line
like soldiers waging war
but knowing all their lives
will go up like smoke

some moments break the dark
even dignify its worth
some moments can get lost
and never come back home
some moments are confused,
some misunderstood
each day is a fire
each blessing and each curse

melting wax traps the ash
never to return
redefined by chance
these stories will be heard
consequence is clear
but chaos blurs the song
love be light to me
shining through the fog
Track Name: By Breath
we're all fire underwater
oceans in the air
countless puzzle pieces
wondering why we're here
we barely move an inch
but we're keeping track of miles
we're the same face beneath our masks
but we're tricked by our disguises

we're swimming deep within it
the surface out of sight
the floor descends beneath us
we're swimming through the sky
when your body says goodnight
i won't drown within the fear
even though you'll lose your breath
remember you will remain here

in an echo
in a glimpse
in the moment i can't miss
in the sweet paralysis
in the exit and entrance
in the touch of something strange
in a whisper of the name
in explosions in myself
in the place i got lost
was the place i found myself
was the place where i found out
every garden is a grave
every teardrop a wave
every wave is an ocean
every ocean is a breath
and everyone
is tethered
by breath
Track Name: Searcher
wandering down the crooked road
i saw the spirit like a dove
she sang a song I'd not yet heard
she called me out to see the world
what are you looking for

i wonder when the time will come
i pray for fire like the dawn
to burn away my coward thoughts
until I find my child heart
because i saw all my hopes get crushed
beneath the weight of wickedness
so blow the ashes till they're lost
unearth the treasures i forgot
what am I living for

I wonder when my time will come

what am I dying for
what am I living for
what am I waiting for
what am I looking for
Track Name: I Am Home
the sun upon my back
the wind that pushes me
the shade that cools me down
the whisper in my ear
the aching in my bones
the thirst unsatisfied
the valley where I start
the mountain yet to climb

wherever I may go
i am home

the moment of relief
the fire in the dark
the salt within my tears
the light that wakes me up
the unknown unexplored
the stars that guide my way
the all within it all
the wild path unpaved

love keeps the door open
for my leaving and arriving home
Track Name: Let Me Go
there’s a world beneath the oceans veil
full of stranger darkness shining there
cause its all it is as it should be
without the touch of humanity
there is more above beyond our shore
in all directions the empty grows
there’s nothing else
like an ocean

countless possibilities in front of me
wondering why the waves do not repeat
so i give up and give in
falling and rising with the ocean

there is nothing else
let me go
to the ocean
Track Name: Confession
some may say I've made a mess
well I would not object
some may say I've watered down
well I didn't like the taste
some may say I've gone too far
well walk a mile with me
i guess you'll have to make it two
and maybe more than three

some may say I've got it wrong
well you keep doing right
some may say I've lost my mind
i did to save my life
some may say I've been deceived
but why is there such peace
in letting go of heavy loads
and stepping out from shadows
and tearing down the temples
that demons disguised
some may say I've got it wrong
well you keep doing right
narrow is the winding road
that takes and gives us life
Track Name: Restless Peace
i cannot fall asleep
but I’m still dreaming
staring at the ceiling
tangled in the sheets
the walls are closing in
is there any way out of here

restless peace
will not let me sleep
restless peace
will not let me be
anything but free
making my heart beat

i see sunlight
peeking past the mountains
burning night away
i cannot wait
to get out of here
is there anyway out of here

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